For you..

I just read his blog.. i was suprised that he added song to his blog coz i remember that he dun like all lthose song thingy de.. anyway, i dunno whether will he come n read my blog.. i just wanna tell him that i still love him alot.. I'm so sorry for wat i had done to him again n again.. but i really wish i can get back to him again.. for the last time.. i really believe n think that we can overcome whateva had once happened.. but.. haiz.. i dunno lar..

I was very very sad when i heard his honest answer to my questions.. haiz.. at times part of me thinks we can get back, but yet again, i dun think so (due to the answer he gave).. guess maybe he haf a new gal in his mind liao ma.. guess she's gettin close to him too.. haiz.. all the best to them..

* I hope u can gif me a call or sms when u did happen to pop by.. (which i dun think so)... can you gif me a very very honest answer??? Lastly, i really love you alot.. please gif me a very last chance..

~~< 'LOVE' is a just a word until it's proven to you >~~

Simple Plan - Untitled

I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight

And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

~~< 'LOVE' is a just a word until it's proven to you >~~

I'm back..

Well,i'm somehow back nia lar.. coz my computer is still down.. not reallt able to update my blog.. therefore no time to figure out how to reactivate my chatterbox.. guess gotta wait till end of the yr le ma..

Well, just wanna say.. take care..

~~< 'LOVE' is a just a word until it's proven to you >~~

16 April 2005

Well, finally the day haf come and go liao.. I haf plan this event in last Feb.. when Dar suggest that to me.. Since it's my dear 18th birthday and I know that he haf not really haf a celebration before so I thought "why not"..

Firstly, when I'm very sure I'm goin to haf this on, I gotta plan the followings:
1) Money
2) How many ppl m I going to invite
3) Who am I going to invite
4) Can they be able to mix ard
5) What food to buy
and the most important factor 6) How to invite him over*

*Well, in case some of you dunno, I told him that he's invited to my primary school fren party (coz I can't tell him it's Sec or Tert fren coz he know them I scare he might ask them)

So hence, I went down to book the pit on the first weekend (Sat) of March with Bella.. Luckily I went down early if not the pit will be booked coz intially I wanna book pit 26 but it was being booked so I took 25 (coz 21+4=25 )

Hmmm.. it was my first time preparing a BBQ, so I totally haf no idea how should I start off.. And I'm really very thankful to my sista.. They plan for me, they stay up over night at my place till 3, 4+ am to prepare the food.. Thank alot..

Well, everything went smoothly (despite of the rain).. Well, thank you guys for coming over to celebrate that wonderful night with him.. Thank You.. and the present too.. he loves it alot.. trust me man!

Lastly, before I end the post, I wanna thanks the following people who helped me out with it:
(ranking not in order)
1) YiYang - inviting his poly fren + giving me suggestions and those funnie chat
2) Denon - inviting his poly fren + givin me suggestions and confirmation and updating me about Styke in school (hehe..)
3) Bella - accompanyin me down to book the pit + suggestions
and to my 3 babes coz this event will not goes well without them
1) "Do" - Fiona
2) "Re" - Cheryl
3) "Mi" - Sharline Dar

THANK YOU!

~~< 'LOVE' is a just a word until it's proven to you >~~

Sorry :(

Hi Guyz, doing fine?? sorry I know you guys haf been waiting for my to post (haha. coz ya guys miss me?? yup i know you do especially my 2 darlings ar..) well, same old stuffs happen again.. I can't access to internet.. I will try to get my stuffs updated although it's kind of too late or in fact some are outdated lar.. hehe.. coz I haf to write a post on 16 April 2005 event at pit 25.. hehe.. I will post it asap k? sorry dar..

~~< 'LOVE' is a just a word until it's proven to you >~~

Am i still part of you?

Just start to wonder am i still part of you? i just feel so left-pu, as if i'm no longer with you guys. even since he became my kor and ever since he joined ouyr group. just for a couple of days, i can feel that im being replaced. congratulations! You had found a replacement!

I know we are suppopsed to meet up for revision but when i need help.. there's no one there for me.. Not that i didn't ask, i did but maybe it's too soft to be heard lar... (talk to u nvr ans, to him + to the rest is the same = no one) Honeslty speaking, i'm a person who seek and need attention. if neccessary attention is not given to me... i'll think alot.. like i'm left out ...etc

during the revision, my presence is equal zero. i'm as though an invisible person Haix, i'm really having a mixed reaction in me lar.. icant' even understand myself, let alone you guys.

Please try to pull me in to your frequency whenever i'm left out... Sometime i'm thinking that i made a fool out of myself... SUX!

~~< 'LOVE' is a just a word until it's proven to you >~~

my fault hor...

Dear, I know I should not be so supersticious to believe in all those and made both of us so sad lar.. As I've promised you, I will not take those stuffs to heart k? Yeah, it's true that we're sailing on the mud and that we haf no room for betterment yet.. Coz we're still young ma.. We're still schooling, we dun haf a fixed and stable job yet.. but once everything takes it's own place, we'll be sailing in the sea le rite?? Hehe.. coz I believe and I know that we're meant for each other in every way, every prospect..

~~< 'LOVE' is a just a word until it's proven to you >~~

i miss u like crazy

Guess maybe it's due to wat happen yesterday (post 4).. I start missing deardear so much... till I almost go crazy (frankly speaking, this feeling is somehow gone le.. but it’s now back again.. I can feel it).. Real crazy till I went to KFC to eat Bandito.. Why Bandito?? Coz the very first Bandito I haf was with dear in the cinema watching "In Good Company" at PS.. Dear fed me somemore know.. so therefore when I ate it I could feel that he’s beside me lor.. See am I crazy or wat.. OMG!!

~~< 'LOVE' is a just a word until it's proven to you >~~

Europa MU

Finally.. today.. tonight.. I get to chiong liao.. Initially, we (me, Charlene, and Dar) wanna go K-Box de.. but due to the stupid rapid increase , we decided to go clubbing..

So happy yet so sad.. I didn't know that dear wanna meet me.. well, maybe there's a miscommunication.. dear waited for me though.. so sorry dear. But I really hope I can meet you and on the same time I really wish I can go clubbing too.. anyway, so sad.. I choose to choose than meeting up with dear.. coz it haf been a long long time since I last club..

So finally, I'm in MU (Music Underground).. feel like a dragon.. haha.. soon before I could really enjoyed, I should get myself drunk first.. so, I started drinking though.. I shared a big big jug of dunno wat alcoholic drinks with Dar.. (she ordered de) but sad to say that there's no "kick" coz I'm not drunk.. hehe.. not high enough.. But I still can dance lar.. haha.. I danced with dar the lesbian dance.. wowho~ we attached lots of attention though.. and they seemed to be enjoying it.. haha..

~~< 'LOVE' is a just a word until it's proven to you >~~

Sweet Caramel!

On 23 April (Wed).. just like last week, I managed to meet up with dear despite his tight schedule (he still haf his project to complete and know wat? It’s due tml).. Last week, I dun get to drink my "Lemon Shiver" so we tried our luck again... But.. So we had Billi Bombers instead.. We ordered a MC Chicken Meal (which come with Soup of the day and an ice cream dessert), and dunno wat burger de. Uhmmm~ the soup of the day tasted so "butter cookies".. haha.. both the main course tasted normal.. normal doesn't mean tasty ya.. It's nothing compared to Swensen's.. Overall, just K lar..

But wat's really comparable is their Caramel Icecream.. (actually we almost forgot about out ice cream..) thought it’s caramel, it’s not very sweet, just nice nia.. really.. NICE~~

We headed home after this coz he still haf project to rush.. While we wait for the green man to light.. we saw four ah gua.. really damn pretty man.. guess dear fall in love with them liao.. haha.. wanna be one of their sisters le.. haha..

~~< 'LOVE' is a just a word until it's proven to you >~~

PastaMania

Anyway, first post of all:

Back to 16 or 17 March (Wed or Thurs), met up with my dear for dinner. Our initial plan was to haf BK or KFC, but we ended up having Pasta at Cineleisure.. my first Pasta meal with him.. Anyway, we tried calling Denon for recommendation, but sadly, he’s not contactable then.. In the end, we had dunno wat country baked pasta and dunno wat pizza de.. anyway, it’s really nice lar.. especially the baked pasta.. hehe.. coz it’s very cheesy.. Yummy Yummy!! No program after that so we headed home though.. well. Actually still wanna go NYDC de.. but dun haf my favourite drinks then – Lemon Shiver (out of stock).. so sad..

~~< 'LOVE' is a just a word until it's proven to you >~~

Shucks!

Shucks! Dunno wat happen to the stupid modem of mine lar.. can’t access to internet.. sianz sia.. everytime like that de.. then that day when dear come and ‘repair’, even before he touched it, everything goes fine.. Hmmm.. like so smart sia.. know it’s going to be “fixed”.. But soon after it goes “tiow” liao.. Oh man! No words to describe it lar.. just know that it hai me so many things wanna post but nv post..

~~< 'LOVE' is a just a word until it's proven to you >~~

"Keanu"

Like every students, I gave him a nickname of "Keanu"

Why? Coz he look like Singapore version kind of "Keanu".. (too bad, I dun haf his photo)

Dunno starting from when I start to notice him.. He's so damn cute lar.. Everybody haf their own style, just like him, he haf his very own way of teachin, explaining, and the tone of his.. haha.. dunno how to describe lar.. just very unique..

Hence, therefore, I started to pay attention in class.. Well, this leads my Frens sayin that I'm mad about him.. Well, I think it's more of like I admire him ba.. like to attend his lesson nia lor.. guess they think too much liao.. haha..

Oh ya, one funnie thing.. Well, guess maybe he himself oso know.. He seldom walked down the pathway liao.. so sad.. Coz he will walked down the pathway to see if we're coping well not, but not now liao.. Wondering should I act as if I dunno how to do then he will come teach me.. *uhmmm~*

Last night, Fiona, one of my fren, felt the same way too.. She started to believe in me that his lesson is funnie, and his style is really very unique.. and she agreed with me that He's CUTE.. OH MAN!! hehe..

But, haiz.. every nice things will just come to an end.. I'm finishin my Stat in April (1 April).. In fact yesterday is the second last class.. so sad.. Well, at least I should feel happy that we'll haf an extra lesson on 2 April.. haha.. well, though it's a Saturday, but, this time round, I'm very willing to go.. haha...

Oh ya, I forget to tell you that he's my Business Statitics lecturer, and he used to teach in SP before.. he taught economics then.. haha.. well, can go check it out.. haha.. He's Mr Tan CK

Shall see you again "Keanu" on 1 April.. hehe..

~~< 'LOVE' is a just a word until it's proven to you >~~

Finally...

Deardear... Kaoz.. I've finally managed to figure out how to put the picture thingy liao.. I know you might be thinking that it's very easy ma, just go to the edit the html there, copy and paste the URLs, will do.. but then my com cannot display that thingy lar.. not even to the edit of the colours etc..

So dear are you proud of me?? haha.. keke..

~~< 'LOVE' is a just a word until it's proven to you >~~

Friday & Saturday

Actually I've lots of post wanna write de.. but out of a sudden all gone liao.. dunno wat to post.. anyway, I met up with my dear on Friday and we watched "In good company"... Hmmm.. not as nice as I thoght it would be.. but.. still k k lar.. kaoz.. kind of regret lar.. should haf listen to dear and watch "Roborts".. wat's done cannot be undone lar.. forget it then..



"In good company" shows that the boss fall in love with the employees' daughter, and fox with her.. haha.. ok wateva.. looked forward to an happy ending but sadly, this did not happen.. and it did not really haf funnie part lar..

As we had decided, dear came over my place the following morning for breakfast before he headed for his canoe..
Well, first time me doing this kind of ai xin zao chan.. This menu haf:
Bacon, Hotdog with cheese, eggs, garlic bread, and bacon bits soup.. for the price of.... - priceless.. coz I made de.. especially for deardear..
Well, regards to how it tasted and how was it gotta ask him lar.. haha..

Dear, really hope you've enjoyed that ai xin zao chan that was especially made for you..

~~< 'LOVE' is a just a word until it's proven to you >~~

Lemony Snicket's A Series of Unfortunate Events

Well, anyway last Sunday, I went for a movie with my DaJie, her husband, my nephew and my niece.. Actually, my sis asked me to ask deardear de.. but dear just came back from his canoe expedition and he's having a fever, so therefore called that two little kids along, coz i told her i dun wanna be a "lightbulb" lar..

Anyway, we catched the "Lemony Snicket's A Series of Unfortunate Events" at GV Bishan, movie hall 4, seat m13 to 17... haha..
Well, just like everytime, I'm squeezed or infact I haf to be in between that two kids.. coz they always feel unfair if I happen to sit beside one of them and not the other... this had happen for years man... so can you imagine when I went out with them I will haf to hold their hands.. look just like a under-aged mother then.. haha..



Overall this story is about three young orphans, Violet, Klaus and Sunny, who's parents were killed in a fire. They are looking for a new home, who are taken in by a series of odd relatives and other people, starting with the cunning and dastardly Count Olaf (Jim Carrey), who hopes to snatch their inheritance from them. Violet is the oldest, 14, and is their brave and fast-thinking leader. The only boy is middle child Klaus, 12, who is intensely intelligent and obsessed with words. The youngest is infant Sunny, who speaks in a language only her siblings can understand, and she has a tendency to... bite. And this show truly shows out the spirits of siblings, the power of love and harmony. An average show with some funnie parts lar.. haha..

~~< 'LOVE' is a just a word until it's proven to you >~~